Sunday, September 25, 2005

Leash

Today, my brother finally ends his "hiatus". He graduated from college about two years ago but he did not work nor to attempt to have one. It's not that he do not want to but there were reasons why he was unemployed for the past years. My brother is not confident that he has the skills to handle a job. I can't blame he graduated from a school where he was not trained that well to face the real world. Plus my parents seems to like that he stays home. My brother helps my mother doing house chores. As for my father...well... he always like us,his children,to be "at home and safe from harm". Don't get me wrong, my father is a good person, he is hardworking and caring. But he has one BIG flaw, he is a worry rat and overprotective. He seems like he want us to be in his "leash" forever. I remember many "verbal sessions with voices that could match up a microphone's voulume" between my father and brothers everytime they went home past curfew [the curfew is 6 or 7pm at least or in some lucky time 8pm]. My father is always scared that my brothers might get get into danger when they are out at night. I appreciate his concern but he is already suffocating us. When the cellphone became popular I thought this might ease my father's constant feeling of worry since he could now contact his kids but I guess it became even worse. He sends SMS like every hour, and if you missed a call or text his nervous cell will work again and negative things will be running through his head. What's even worse is if you have a lowbat phone thus you could not response to him, he will be frantic. My father thinks that we are still young kids who could not take care of ourself.When he is not in his "worrying period" my father is a sweet guy. I just hope that someday he would loosen up and let us grow up. My brother started work today and since today is my father's day off he insisted on accompanying him there. My brother agreed on it to avoid complications. It's not a good sign.

Monday, September 19, 2005

Soon to be Stressed-out

My problem is that I procastinate. I tend to do things the last minute. I really get the energy to do stuff when the deadline is near. But I'm worried since the next few weeks will be h-e-c-t-i-c.
Practices for our chinese dance to be performed on September 30. Debates scheduled on the 27th. There is also my speech [date not known yet] andI'm the assitant producer for out play on October 7. Plus I have five articles for HF3 and the deadline is near and I haven't started anything mainly because I have to do two articles for HF2 that were originally assigned to somebody but they weren't able to do it. I have to rush it really. Now I'm scared if only this time that we are just taking minors and we are so busy, how much more if we take the major subjects? We will have three major subjects next sem: Introduction to Journalism, Introduction to Broadcasting and Laws of Mass Media. I just hope I could handle my academics and HF well since I don't want to give up the latter. And also still hoping that despite all these stuff occupying my time I could still have the time to do something for fun [In my case,watching TV]. For now, i better start working....or else.....

Sunday, September 11, 2005

edited forwarded blog entry

courtesy of http://www.angelfire.com/ar3/ewan/

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. jec
2.jay-kuh [my name is pronounced as je-kup but most people call me that way]
3.jiboy

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1.forg
2.ajb2091
3.gilmore guy

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1.my perserverance
2.being helpful
3.being simple

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1.my penmanship
2.my speed of speaking
3. my hesitations

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1.snatchers,holduppers
2.cancer
3.rabies

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1.eyeglasses (I always wear it anyway)
2.wallet
3.cellphone

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1.pink shirt
2.maon
3.rubber shoes

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE MUSICAL ARTISTS
1.Lifehouse
2.Michelle Branch
3.Freestyle

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (OF ALL TIME)
1.'Hanging by a moment'- Lifehouse
2.'Goodbye to you'-Michelle Branch
3. 'Before I let you go'-Freestyle

NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. write for the sports/features sections of HF
2. photography
3. public speaking

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1.understanding
2.truth
3.love

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order)
1. I don't play any kind of sports
2.I can't be a vegetarian
3. I always study

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU

1.sense of humor
2. good conversationalist
3. being caring

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO
1. smoke
2. drive
3. play sports

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. Watching TV
2. reading
3.surfing the internet

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. write my pending articles
2. buy a new book
3. watch TV

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING
1.newpaper writer
2. scripwriter
3. teacher

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION TO
1.Baguio
2.Bohol
3. England

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL

1. I like romantic shows/movies
2. I'm physically weak
3. I like listening to mellow music

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY

1. I hate shopping
2. I don't spend too much time in the CR
3. I don't care how I look

Monday, September 05, 2005

Legally Human

Today I turn 18. I'm now legally human. I'm not a "minor" anymore. But I don't feel 18, I feel like I'm still 15. [Hence,when I was 15 I still feel 12,well I guess I'm 3 years delayed] When I look in the mirror I don't see an eighteen year old. I feel that I'm not ready to grow up. In the States 18 is the time when some kids starts to be independent but I could never see myself in that situation. I guess at 18 I should be mature but I'm not. I'm still a kid but I'm now nearing the end of my "teenhood" phase of life but I can't see myself evolved to a young adult anytime soon. Maybe when I turned 21 I will feel 18.
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I never celebrated my birthday with a party. I know some kids beg their parents to throw them a party but I did not feel that urge to ask my parents that. Actually for sometime they were encouraging me to have a birthday party but I decline. I just don't want to do it. I don't like experiencing the hassles of preparing food and other stuff and cleaning up. I just want to celebrate my birtday in a simple way. I also never treat my classmates, I'm not being selfish or what but the times are hard today I don't want to make any unnecessary expenses. Plus if they are real friends they don't have to pressure me to treat them.
Birthday wishes:

* No more asthma attacks [So far this I did not have any serious attack of asthma]
* Good grades [I hope that I and my class will do good on the activities fo the finals]
* Peaceful home[I just hope my family will not face big problems in the near future]
* Good economy [sounds traditional? but that is true I am really hoping for the best for the Philippines]
* Away from harm [like holduppers,snatchers,juvenile deliquents,dengue etc...]

Friday, September 02, 2005

113 days to go

Today I woke up at 4am to review for my midterm exams. My mother who wakes up early to do some early housechores was listening to the a radio program on AM radio and then this particular show started with a Christmas song then the announcer hollered "113 days to go before Christmas!". I was surprised since I did not notice that Christmas is coming already. When I was young once September 1 comes, I will start my Christmas countdown because I am so excited about it. But as years goes by I'm starting to forget my tradition since I don't "feel" Christmas anymore. Last year was the worst since I was not really happy during Christmas season. What's even worst is that there is no particular reason why I was feeling that way last year, I just felt nothing special. That's why sometimes I wish I am a kid again.

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Smoke gets into my Nerves!

While in the jeep this morning something annoyed me.It's not the music nor the noisy DJ of Love Radio (kailangan pa bang i memorized yan, for pete's sake), it is not the traffic caused by people who are ignorant or lazy to cross in the right way nor the insensitivity of some passengers ("Hello Lady, someone just left the jeep could you move a little since I'm only sitting like a quarter of space") but the oh-so nice driver stop in the middle of the road to buy his precious cigarette and he smoked it till his lungs content. I hate smoke.Any kind of smoke wheter it came from burning leaves, from a vehicle or incense. But what really irritates me is smoke coming from cigarettes. This is something I could not fathom, Why do people smoke cigarettes?. Come on what are the benefits do cigarette bring us? And when I see cigarette ads there is this"government warning" that says cigarette smoking is dangerous to your health, if is really hazardous why show it in the first place? It is like saying buy this it could kill you. I do not want to lecture on how bad smoking cigarettes because this topic has been discussed a lot of times from our parents to school teachers to the media, people already know how dangerous it is but still they still continue it. Well I'm not telling people to stop smoking since it's their prerogative. Smoke until your lungs burn out but please DO NOT SMOKE IN PUBLIC PLACES because there are still people who cares about their lungs.